This morning I had an epiphany. At least I think it was one.
Faith has been problematic of late, so I have been doing self-affirmations. I spend loads of time everyday telling myself that I am capable of great things and great things I will end up doing. Words don’t count for much as such, but words I’d like to believe- that’s a different story.
I tell myself that I want this and that I can do this and that it doesn’t matter who succeeded or failed before me, that it doesn’t matter whether I’m young or immature or penniless or a woman and that I’m only as trivial as I want to be.
So this morning I told myself,
“Life isn’t easy. There will be times, Jupiter, when you’ll have to give up, acknowledge your weaknesses, surrender and take the easy way out. Times when impending liabilities will shackle you and stifle you. But this is not one of those times…”
(and then without a second’s interruption, I told myself)
“This day we fight!”
Fuck! I had a Lord of the Rings moment! And that’s not all…it played back to me on the TV on my way to work…at first it just sounded familiar but then there was no mistaking it.
“I see in your eyes the same fear that would take the heart of me. A day may come when the courage of men fails, when we forsake our friends and break all bonds of fellowship, but it is not this day. An hour of woes and shattered shields, when the age of men comes crashing down! But it is not this day! This day we fight!”
So be it. This day I fight 😀