Sometimes you just gotta sit and wonder why you came all this way when you really don’t have much to show for it. I guess optimism is like a rubber band. You can only stretch it this much. And beyond that, you know you’re kidding yourself- it’s either going to snap or ricochet and hit you full in the face. You know that the slump, the despair is real. That things will never go your way. That even systematically, methodically you can’t solve all your problems because luck is never on your side. Never was, never will be. You are worthless and they all agree.