There is a time and a place for sadness. And that time is not today. Today I am angry; today I am grossly disappointed. For the first time in over a month, I am seeing things for what they are and I hate what I see. I am enraged at the hypocrisy, disappointed at the breach of trust and baffled at the stupidity. Where did I go wrong? Was I wrong to believe in the good in people? Was I stupid to trust him? Was I delusional to think everyone would get along? More than anything and anyone, I hate my own naiive self right now and I wonder how I will ever forgive myself for this shameless lapse in judgement.
This is a cruel joke that the forces that be are playing on me, a joke that’s called “forget that rolling stones song, Jups, you will NEVER get what you want. Happy endings and perfect husbands are hallucinations. Love is a drug and it wears off quicker than you’d think. Get real and check yourself into rehab before it’s too late.”
I read the saddest little quote today, “Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love”- Charles M. Schulz